My relationship with constellation work began in October 2016, at a small evening workshop facilitated by a psychotherapist at my local library. To put it quite simply, I was intrigued. I registered for a much bigger two-day workshop facilitated by Brigitte Sztab in a nearby city just weeks later. While I was at that event, I committed to a year-long learning circle and ultimately completed three contiguous years of training. Brigitte’s mentorship allowed me to experience in-depth constellation work of my own while developing my skill as a facilitator in my own right. I began facilitating constellations in my final year of training and continue to do so today.

When unconscious material presents itself, I hear and understand much of the allegory, and I offer a judicious translation to others who do not yet speak the language. I recognize and attend to the presence of the knowing field in my internal imagery, thoughts, feelings, and body sensations. I use my body and nervous system as a sensitive instrument, sensing subtle energies and tuning into emotional and behavioral movements within the field. I aspire to experience the representative's thoughts and feelings as intimately as my own. I notice how representatives move and how they hold their body, how they are aligned with, or repulsed by, other representatives, essentially reading the energetic and physical expression of each cooperative component within the constellation.

When I facilitate constellation work, I am able to determine, by following emotional charge, whether a working participant’s problem inheritance lies within their maternal line, paternal line, or the parental relationship. When immigration is the source of strife, I know it by feel, and can confirm it with the help of the working participant’s family history. The same is true for perinatal trauma, sexual abuse, shocking loss, etc. as these archetypes have distinct essences. I am able to name approximately how old a person was at time of trauma based on the energy signature of their representative in the constellation. I am familiar with what Catholicism feels like, what war feels like; I recognize the feeling of an exiled family member who belongs but has not been offered their rightful place in the constellation. I learned how to identify these archetypes, and more, from years of attunement to the knowing field, painstakingly connecting the energetic signature I sense to the information that is readily available without translation, such as the representatives’ reports, working participant’s memories, family stories, and historical data.

“The capacity to identify is love. The capacity to disidentify is wisdom. Both arise simultaneously and without any conflict.”— Peter Fenner

I rely on both love and wisdom; they help me to simultaneously identify and disidentify with participants’ suffering. When I am facilitating, I am impacted very little by human suffering. It is an expanded state, beyond empathy, where I know there is actually nothing wrong. Even in a family system where I am immersed in a pattern as grotesque as incest, I am virtually unperturbed; I do not pity. The feeling of “no problem” is real and true for me and, fortunately, it positively impacts the constellation. I know that we have everything we need, and that embodied belief nonverbally invites everyone in the circle to relax into faith as well. I intimately connect with the darkness in the family system and my fearless relationship with it allows others to follow suit.

My cognitive and intuitive practice in the knowing field contributed significantly to my own individuation. A more fully realized version of myself emerged after years of quite deliberate connection to the truth of the intelligent, transpersonal field of awareness.

When I first began practicing constellation work, I thought the knowing field was an intelligence that was only available between the time a constellation commenced and concluded. I made the assumption that it was only accessible within the physical space of the workshop’s circle of chairs. Now I know, with every cell in my body: the knowing field is beyond time and space. No ritual is required to open the knowing field, no movement is necessary to enter it. I do not only utilize the knowing field during constellation work. Moreover, I am not only Self in service when I facilitate, I am not in unity only when representing, and my healing is not limited to any act. I am immersed in the knowing field, in unity with, and in service to, my Self and all others in all space-time. I am healing in perpetuity.